Two or three things I know for sure
(With apologies to Dorothy Allison)
1. Rumpelstiltskin is coming along very, very nicely.
The pattern repeats seem to go quite quickly, especially since, unlike Handsome, the stitch count on each row stays the same. Amazing what a difference that makes–when you’re not increasing out the wazoo every other row. (To say nothing of that ruffle.) I am now up to sixteen repeats out of thirty-nine.
2. I have strep throat. (Just thought I’d throw that in there.)
3. I purchased a basket at Tuesday Morning the other day, thinking to use it for a knitting basket.
Doesn’t that look nice and almost gift-basket-like? Like I actually planned what to put in there instead of just toodling around my apartment picking up random knitting and spinning supplies and dropping them in? I can only put it down to the innate loveliness of knitting and spinning supplies–certainly not any special skill or forethought on my part.
4. (Yeah, I know I’m over my limit of three things now, but what the hell.) I wore the Handsome Triangle yesterday while I was out and about (to the doctor’s office, where I was diagnosed with, well–see #2, above) and got several compliments on it. It was just the thing for wearing while feeling under the weather: warm, soft, cuddly, beautiful.
(I figure I need to get some enjoyment out of it before it becomes Mother’s. Also, when you put that much work into something, you’d darn well better wear it with pride.)
5. Lawyers call a divorce, a “dissolution.” Isn’t that just the tidiest, most antiseptic way of putting it? I just can’t seem to stop myself from dwelling on this word, with its relation to both “dissolute,” a word with which I never much wanted to be associated, and “dissolve.” Somehow both seem sadly appropriate.
6. Life goes on, no matter how much your throat hurts or how much you feel you might simply dissolve into a quivering puddle on the floor.
May 17th, 2007 at 12:10 am
Hope you’re feeling better soon! Rumpelstiltskin looks so beautiful and inviting.
May 17th, 2007 at 8:44 am
Divorce (or dissolution or whatever) sucks, it’s true, but believe me when I tell you that it does get better with time. I’m five years out from mine, and look back on that as a really bad time, but one that made me stronger. Hang in there, and you’ll be OK. I’ll be thinking of you.
May 17th, 2007 at 9:41 am
Feel better soon!
May 17th, 2007 at 9:58 am
Divorce is really sad. I think that’s what I’m left with after all the other anxiety and anger. Such an opportunity for a relationship, a life, and it’s gone. So much potential and such a messy failure. I guess I just hate to give up.
But Susan is right. It does get better. Situations change, people change, priorities change. In the end, you’ll know you made the right choice.
Who were you before you put yourself last?
May 17th, 2007 at 11:42 am
Oh, my goodness, it makes me sad to read this entry today. I know the pain of divorce or dissolution. No sage words, but time and distance does help, but that of course takes time. Many hugs go out to you and hope that you feel better (from the strep soon) as well as the other, but I know that will take time.
May 18th, 2007 at 12:20 am
Wishing you a speeedy recovery from the strep and sending thoughts of comfort and healing for the rest. Take good care of yourself.
May 18th, 2007 at 9:02 pm
Ohmylord on the shawl – that yarn is incredible! Gack on the strep. I agree on the basket, and wow, the way it glows, it looks almost like it’s made from copper. And many hugs on the puddling.
May 20th, 2007 at 1:57 pm
Sara, I read an important article on Salon.com. concerning autism/Ashberger’s (sp?) syndrome. Here’s the link:
http://www.salon.com/mwt/feature/2007/05/18/autism_misdiagnosis/
Best,
Cat (old friend of Ellen’s)